Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps

you won't admit you love me

and so how am i ever to know?

you only tell me

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

a million times i ask you,

and then i ask you over again

you only answer

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

if you can't make your mind up,

we'll never get started

and i don't wanna wind up

being parted, broken-hearted

so if you really love me,say yes

but if you don't, dear, confess

and please don't tell me

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

Relationships, unilaterally maintain a common thread. Not a bolt of outa-da-blue, but certainly a 'putting it down' moment.

Whilst the nitty gritties of each calls for a different approach... the common spine keeps all possible scenarios bound to the same plane.

Conversations are as intrinsic as the noisy silence. Change is the driver. Changing together is the key. Once the key is in place... the ride is on its way. Blissfully so.

The learning drawn from this simple track from 'Coupling' comes, in an almost serendipitous manner, to my mind.

Has love confessed to me... A resounding Yes! Am I perhapsed? :)

Am still finding out...

This omnipresent phase never ceases to stupefy, petrify and glorify thy self, all at once.But what it also never ceases to do... is have an impact.

Am growing to understand the rules and the utter rule-less-ness of this 'mother of all deals'.

****

I owe you a helluva lot,' I said sincerely.

'Not true, you ***, not true,' she answered.

'Not true?' I inquired, somewhat surprised.

'You owe me everything,' she said.

Everything indeed, love.

**** - Nicholas Sparks speak

Else, Moi.

Evolution - a revelation

There are those things that you deem as possible, there are those that you deem as probable and then there are those that you deem as inevitable.

Thanks to Punit n Ravi, I got to experience the inevitable as they roped me in to be involved with Evolution.

I adored the experience of listening to and conversing with an enthusiastic bunch of participants. Many of them were good, some were rough and some others were beyond me. A mixed bag really... with one commonality... a wall that I needed to permeate.

Started off warm... but as the flow increased, the trickle turn into a torrent. There is a lot of talent out there. It needs to be harnessed and guided in the right manner. Do not deem myself ready to do that... but then, am just hoping to do my bit. With time everyone and I will learn the ropes.

Motivation seems to be the key, self belief is the catalyst. I've tried and wishfully speaking, succeeded in imbibing that ounce of 'me am goood' feeling amongst the participants.

A few stray comments received at the end of the session were instrumental in making the effort feel worth it all. Feedback is essential, constructive is appreciated... genuine is wished for. Hoping I got to hear the right side of the tale. :)

It has been a pleasure 'dear all'. All the best, for the adventures that lie ahead. Enjoy every moment of the testing times, that might lie ahead. You've earned it... now live it... Full size.

Tap Confusion - Get rid of the Stupor

I desperately need to shake myself out of this stupor. Its been more than a month since I blogged.

However, please do not confuse me for one of 'those' who deem their self worth directly proportional to the extent of discipline they are able to incorporate into their lives.

I on the other hand 'desperately need to shake myself out of this stupor' because, I really need to channelize my thoughts right. I have been intending on writing.... but have over/cross and scrape-the-dead-skin analyzed what I thought fitting to write about. And, it really is no surprise that I came up with....... (drum rolls) Nada!

I want to somehow shake myself out of "structure". Chaos, brings out the best in many of us. Since Axiom's I been captivated by 'Integrative thinking'. Its time to translate my thought into action.

Fitzgerald said that "the ability to hold two opposing ideas in the mind at the same time and still retain the ability to function, is the sign of a truly intelligent individual"

Integrative Thinking defines this very trait. It harps on the importance of maintaining two opposing ideas in the mind and creatively resolving the tension between them. Thus, the practitioner is able to generate a new idea that contains elements of the others, but is superior to both.

The genesis of this school of thought, as oft stated, goes back to nature. This is an extract from Roger Martin's work on Integrative thinking. Very simplisticaly it is the purpose of the Opposable Thumb.

Human beings are distinguished from nearly every other creature by a physical feature: the opposable thumb.

Thanks to the tension that we can create by opposing the thumb and fingers, we can do marvelous things—write, thread a needle, guide a catheter through an artery. Although evolution provided human beings with this potential advantage, it would have gone to waste if our species had not exercised it in ever more sophisticated ways. When we engage in something like writing, we train the muscles involved and the brain that controls them. Without exploring the possibilities of opposition, we wouldn’t have developed either its physical properties or the cognition that accompanies and animates it.

But I digress... I draw strength from Integrative thinking and hence intend on utilising it constructively. Since my absence from the blogpsphere has been due to lack of clarity and not lack of visibility, it can be worked upon relatively comfortably.

I intend on whipping the prodigal rabbit outa the hat, with the cacophony that reveberates in my puny little mind. :)

Good Luck to me? Indeed!

PS: Anyone, who cares to point out the white elephant in this post?